First and foremost, I have to state that this was contextually one of the more challenging stories that I’ve read in a long time. Written by Vladimir Nabokov, the controversial subject matter was completely off-putting; yet, I found myself becoming intrigued in a way. To be honest, if it wasn’t for the beautifully composed and well-written narrative, I would’ve said, “screw it” and disregard the novel altogether. It’s actually rather difficult to place this novel in a specific genre, though; but I guess the best way to describe it would be a “psychological adult tragedy” in the form of a memoire. And, rather than a typical “love story”, I would describe it as it being a “lust story”
“She was Lo, plain Lo, in the morning, standing four feet ten in one sock. She was Lola in slacks, she was Dolly at school. She was Dolores on the dotted line. But in my arms she was always- Lolita. Light of my life, fire of my loins. My sin. My soul.”
This is the first and probably one of the most memorable quotes from the entire story. The source of this quote comes from a man named Humbert Humbert, who happens to be the narrator as well. In his memoire, Humbert tells us of his background beginning from his early adolescence in Europe- where he explains of his childhood romance (resulting in tragedy) that impacted him for the rest of his life- to his emigration to the United States, where we further follow his development and maturation into adulthood and so on. So perhaps, one of the most interesting aspects of the novel is the multiple names given to Lolita by Humbert. The way he fantasizes about her tells us that no matter what stage she is in her life; she’ll always be his little Lolita.
Lolita play different roles in this novel, but I feel that H. H. certainly went through different transitions and took on different roles and experiences in his life as well. Humbert, as scholarly and as well educated of a man he’s portrayed himself to be, there’s one profound flaw; and that is…he never truly grows up. He’s completely aware of the fact that his immoral feelings towards young girls are wrong, as he states in this passage:
“All this I rationalize now. In my twenties and early thirties, I did not understand my throes quite so clearly. While my body knew what it craved for, my mind rejected my body's every plea. One moment I was ashamed and frightened, another recklessly optimistic. Taboos strangulated me.”
Yet, the intense emotions that boiled within as a youth impacted him so greatly, that he was never really able to move beyond the experience. So, when he met 12-year-old, Dolores, his instant infatuation escalated to pure obsession. So, this would be considered the first and major stage of his life.
His development and transitions from an innocent love-struck youth (ex: the romance with Annabel) to a manipulative (yet charming) man (ex: his young adult years), then a “father figure” who provides and nurtures Lolita from the world (ex: his relationship with Dolores "escalates" after he marries her mother), and then lastly we’re led to believe that maybe he’s indefinitely in love once again (ex: his desperate search for her for 2 years AND the mirrored romantic feelings he experienced as a young boy); thus bringing him back full circle.
Well, I've conclusively decided that this novel- as disturbing at it may be- honestly was a remarkable book. And I mean not in the sense of the "it was the greatest book", but it was noteworthy and it was truly that which was worth remarking about.